This earth hour- connect to earth

After thinking and looking through so many blogs and news, i finally decided to write a blog on the environment problems faced in India. I can’t tell you the exact problems faced or not by the people but we need to agree that why the environment is changing so drastically. Being an indian, I am not very much of a religious person or like celebrating festival in the cost of stupid stuff. I prefer to think “what would be more sensible to do for our surroundings and the people”, even though we are the people who don’t care for our environment. In India, if we look clearly, we have gods for everything, from music to environment to literally everything. But look at us, are we actually respecting anything? We believe that everything in this world is created by gods, yet we treat it like we are not entitled to anything. We are just a bunch of losers, who wants everything for free and don’t even want to work hard for anything.
Well, I am sorry, my post was to acknowledge you to do something about the environment and not the critize anyone. But you agree or not, we are the one responsible for it. Do we want our future generation to suffer only because we didn’t get time to take necessary action at right time. Yes, we don’t, we would never want our loved ones to suffer because of our stupidity. And always remember, our actions is what repeated by our children. So if you use too much of cell-phone and want your kids to study, you can’t blame the kid for not studying, after he is learning from you. If you want your future generation or your younger one be nice and kind, first you have to change. If you, yourself wouldn’t change, you can’t change anything. 
I understand, earning for our family and fulfill our needs is important to us. Yes, I understand YOLO, and that’s why I am telling you why waste your time not doing the right thing. If you look through, the way we can save environment, it is not only saving our nature but also saving our money. Yes I will give you example, you can take a bag with you, when you are out for shopping, it will help you to save that “5 rupees” which you can give to a poor person or you can also collect in a piggybank and someday you might be able to help someone with that money. The very first thing you can do is “dumping plastics”. And try to change the attitude towards everything. It’s not important that everything you think or might be written in your holy book should be true. Infact if you look Through, those holy books told us to be good person and not always remember “hatred” is one of the deadly sin. No, I am not a religious expert or expert in anything. But I do believe that change is very much necessary for us right now.

If I start writing how to change and what to do and stuff, it would take me too many days to write and you guys won’t read so much. So, all I can say is read the blogs, take active part in changing the environment, help each other, do something nice everyday and make it a habit and you will definitely feel good. Come out of your home and see, what we have done and how we can change for our mistakes. Let’s come together and join our hands and raise awareness of the climate change in our own place. If your agree with me and want to do something, start it by planting a flower or any plant or even an indoor plants in your take care of it like you love the most. And you want to create awareness share this blog if you don’t want to write too much of your own. Plus if you plant a flower or anything, just take a pic and share it in your Instagram, facebook or twitter or in any platform you desire to make awareness. Use hashtag #jennamademedoit #ourstosave #connecttoearthCampaign 
Till then, love your environment and save it from the filthy people. Do put your thoughts in the comment section. This is Jenna, signing off. 
For more, go to the website https://www.earthhour.org

Dealing life with anxiety.

People say “happiness is the thing which cost nothing, share it with everyone”. Yet, it is the most valuable thing anyone can ever own. All I want in my life is to be happy. I know happiness is different for everyone. For some it’s all money, and for some it’s seeing other smile and it can be anything for anyone. But for me it’s all being not suffering from my anxiety and depression. I hate it when I think about my needs of anti-depressants to be happy in life. Why some of us need the help of a medication to be just happy. It’s it free of cost? “Please let me be happy”, I repeatedly pray Allah. No, I am not much of a religious person but all I can share anything is with Allah and we do have a lot of conversation.  What worse have I done to be in this situation. Then I remember, I am not alone in this. But that doesn’t make me happy, that makes me angry, my head hurts, I feel like killing myself, I want to do things to myself the things I can never say out loud. I don’t wanna share either because maybe everyone might say “we are there for you”, “don’t think so much” and so many things, they want us to share things but deep down, even we know they will never understand how we are feeling because even some of us don’t know the reason of being so depressed and that is the most depressing thing ever. Even I want to know why I feel like this, I wish I could tell myself. I ask myself the same question, “what is so wrong with you?” Even I can’t answer to my own, how would I answer yours. For me, sometimes I feel, I am desperate to be in love or to be loved. I just want to be loved without any conditions, but humans do have conditions in everything. It’s okay to have conditions. Everything comes with terms and conditions, anyway. Look, even I am asking to be loved by someone without any conditions and that is also a condition. Silly me. My dealing with depression is I loved writing from my childhood, writing is like I am talking to someone who would understand me and will never leave me and will listen to me unconditionally, no matter how stupid and nonsense I sound.

I don’t want to make anyone feel depressed or sad or fill up with any negative emotions. I just want to tell you if someone is dealing with depression, don’t ask them anything, just be there for them in any situation, listen to them no matter how stupid and nonsense they sound or might even find it boring. Don’t help them in dealing with it, they can deal with it, have been doing it with or without you. And I also want to tell to the people who are dealing with anxiety or any kind of mental illness, you should be proud of yourself, like me. We are so strong that we can deal with anything like that which cannot be seen but can only be felt. And we all know, feeling is the thing, most of us don’t wanna have. Because you can’t show it or make anyone understand. So, everyone dealing it or not, have patience and just go your loved ones and hug them tight and tell them how much you love them. Sometimes you got to show to tell things to someone. Till then, this is Jenna here. signing off.

A daughters letter to her papa

Dear Papa,
There are so many things that I would like to tell you but I always fail due to lack of words. I would like to thank you for everything. From teaching my sister and me, take our first walk to stand on our own in our difficult situations. Maybe most of the time you were busy and we didn’t get to share time with you but you were away just to see us smile and have a good life. You always stood before us and protect us from everything. Even though we don’t praise you for all the things you do for us but let me tell you, you will always be our superhero. We love, sometimes we fight also, sometimes we made each other cry but isn’t that how being family works?! To grow with each other into something better.
Thank you for believing in me even when I screw things up. And sorry for all the mistake I made during all these years. I hope to make you proud of me someday. You are the first man we have ever loved and we will love you forever. 
Happy fathers day. 
Love,
Your little one. 

Celebrating Ramadan Eid, 2018

Assalam waleikum
Ramadan Mubarak to all and everyone. Ramadan eid or Eid-ul-fitr comes with peace, right after one month of roja or fasting. During this one holy month of fasting, we get to learn a lot of things such as patience, inner peace, brings family together and strength our relationship with god. But if you are unable to fast due to some reason, then it is not mandatory to fast. During Ramadan, the muslims give zakat to the poor and the needy ones. Zakat is one of the five pillars of islam and is a compulsory giving of a set of one’s wealth as a charity to the needy ones.

In this festival, we also have a tradition of gifting among the family and loved ones. On the day of eid, we do our prayers and wear new clothes and take blessings from our elders. We not only clean and decorated our homes but also the masjid and the street with vibrant color of lights. On this day, we celebrate by getting together with our family and food is served and eaten along with yum deserts.This year we are celebrating eid on 16th june. 
Here are few of the pics from my home town

Hope you had an amazing eid! Khuda Hafiz!

Struggle of being an introvert

I am always the silent one, whether i am in a group of friends or family. They would say, “hey, say something” or “hey, why are you always so silent” and all i could do is go blank. It’s not i don’t like having conversations but maybe i don’t know how to have conversations. I get nervous easily, lack in confidence and what not. I have been trying to find out why I behave like this, like why I am clueless all the damn time. Well, i am clueless about that too. (lol!!) it was never okay to be shy kid and now that i am grown up, it gives me anxiety everytime i go out and meet people. Its not like i am not trying to be social, which i try every time i set my foot outside my house. Adulting as an introvert is really tough. You have to go out and talk for yourself, meet new people and introduce yourself. Life is tough, real tough! I always want to be alone but also want to get included(i hope that make sense).